i stopped eating red meat first, in high school after i read an article linking
meat-heavy diets to an increase in the likelihood of developing alzheimer’s.


iron builds up in the hippocampus, there’s tissue damage. scientists had a hard time figuring this out because
water also accumulates in the brain, making the iron hard to detect, but they saw that the tissue damage was
happening in conjunction with the iron accumulation. it’s in the oligodendrocytes. oligodendrocytes produce myelin,
myelin coats neurons, when myelin starts to break down it’s a cascade of broken communication, a dam you can’t plug.


the clock test is administered to screen for alzheimer’s — visuospatial understanding is compromised quickly.
there’s six critical clock errors: wrong time, no hands, missing numbers, number substitutions, repetition, refusal.
the critically errored clocks follow the alzheimer’s patient’s invention their own kind of modernity, free of linearity,
time flattened, time unstuck, everything happening at once. i read this article a while ago, i can’t remember it exactly
and i don’t want to look for it, i’d rather go off my memory of my memory of it: alzheimer’s is a form of time travel.


sundowning is a symptom of middle and late stage alzheimer’s, wherein a person gets worse in the evening —
restless, agitated, confused, pace back and forth, wander, yell.


that used to be a busy time of day, getting home from work, checking on children, cooking dinner
but maybe you can try to pacify them by keeping a night light on.


every night’s a resurrection; every day’s a degradation.